After years of Grow and Bless I was understandably excited about what my “one word” for 2015 was going to be. Although Bless was still in full throttle, at the end of November I turned my thoughts toward the new year and start praying about what one word I could choose as my focus for 2015. This time I really didn’t have any idea, but soon one word began to press itself into my thoughts over and over again.
In typical me fashion I thought, “Hmmm…are you sure God? I mean, wait? That’s not right. I hate waiting.”
The word makes me start fidgeting in my seat. Just like I do any time my husband convinces me to just “sit around and relax”. I can’t take it, after a few minutes my leg starts bouncing and my fingers start itching for something to do. Give me a book to read, a conversation to have, or a show to watch if I want to relax. Waiting is just not my thing.
After I made sure (possibly more than once) that wait was, indeed, the right word at first I squished up my nose in distaste. After I’d had a few days to chew on it, however, I found that it really makes perfect sense, and might even end up being rather sweet.
This is the last year we have for Bob to be in college, if all goes according to plan he’ll graduate Spring of 2016. That means next year will bring on some mega-huge changes and a move once again for our family–hopefully into a house of our very own for the first time ever. But for this year….we’ll wait.
I long to have a baby or a toddler in my arms once more, fall of this year my baby will start Kindergarten and it brings me to tears just thinking about it. While I love my two gorgeous, funny, amazing children to pieces, in my heart our family just doesn’t feel complete, and I still struggle with having them away from me and in school each day. We have discussed and are praying over a few different options and are so excited to be able to once again begin to expand our family and seek God’s will as to where and how they should be taught. But for now we know we’re only supposed to have the two, and they’re both to go to public school. So for now, I wait.
Being a do-er and a talk-er I have a terrible tendency to rush headlong into things, conversations, and commitments before I stop and think about them. I have a feeling Wait will be applied to learning more about this area of my life, as well.
I also feel that in my year of Wait I am to focus more on the important and less on the urgent. That I’m to “turn my eyes from useless things” and focus them instead on the One Thing that matters above all else.
And so, my friends, this year I will…